Coming back, with trust issues no more.

I can thank all of this to a friend of mine.
Night, by night, I suffered with so many thoughts just going all over my head. But now, I am problem free; mostly thanks to one person.

Overnight, I made friends with one guy, this guy was in my PE class all year. I happen to get a message from him asking,
"how come you don't speak alot?"
Still with trust problems and not knowing wether I can say the truth, I tell well, only a minor factor to this truth.
"I have SLI, Speech and Language Impairment, I've never been able to become comfortable with one on one conversation."
Obvious lie if you know Janet, like seriously gurl. So anyway, he then reveals that he also had a mutual disliking of The Evil One. (Aka some vicious ex-crush of mine) he refuses to state a reason. So I became honest with him, sort of. And said,
"I've been lieing for a bit of time, saying I don't like him, I did, I just lied. Right now i do not like him."
I did not specify all the complicated other things, but soon we have a typical conversation (totally no boat ride conversations or anything, huehue) and eventually he sorta broke out a truth he told nobody but me.

"Peer pressure has gotten me to become a rude person. If I say anything rude, know that I will neve mean it. It's just something that got into my personality."
"I'm opening up about all of this to Jand, I never knew I would do this."
Anyway, this is actually the very basic of all he said in his big long paragraph. I thought about this so hard; how can someone who I talked to for three hours suddenly be so honest and kind? Are some, and not all rude people are like him? I let the friendship simmer for a month, and even through all kinds of rumors, he only spoke good of me. My best friends tell me that. And I saw, I have to learn to trust. I cut into my wrists at least four times while gone from oasis and he told me.
"you have to stop this. Will cutting help your case with your mom? Just letting her see that you hurt yourself? You're hurting her, and yourself. Cutting? Does it solve anything? No."
And I was so surprised by his honesty, I simply stopped doing this stupidity and even broke and threw away the knife I used. Never have I seen this before, but through him I see that there has to be the kind, and the truthful in this world. And I am willing to trust and befriend again. Also, I'm not sure exactly what it was The One Not To Be Named's dad saw, but apparently my best friend said his dad's sending him to a military school, on behavior stuff. She's not sure what reason, but just that I am now assured I won't be seeing him in high school next school year. I am problem free for the time being.

That's good to hear jand.Welcome back!

Thats awesome to hear jand. Glad your back

Glad to see you got most of your problems sorted out. Take it easy, and welcome back. 

You do not know how overjoyed I am for you that the load of crap heaved onto you has ended. No one should have to go through a fraction of what you did. And yet you did, and I admire you for that. I'm also so so so happy for you that you were able to find someone that you can trust again.      

Way to persevere, Jand. Oasis wouldnt be what it is today without you, its great to hear that youve gotten through some things. Welcome back! So glad things are looking up for you!

Can't think of anything better.

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